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For ALL Montana OA fellows - to submit a blog, simply email your writing to [email protected].
While trying to write out my 9th step amends to my mom, I was hit with a wall of negativity in my mind. I realized in that moment, my stories around being abandoned by her and all the ways I’ve tried to dispute that fact, were stopping me from seeing any truth about what really happened. And in that moment a choice presented itself; (1) I can consciously believe that my mom is cruel and intentionally left me because I’m unlovable. OR (2) I can turn to God and accept His love, light and clarity while accepting my mom’s humanness as a sick person.
I have been doing some in depth amends work with a new sponsor. Going to a new level has brought me a closer connection with God. I haven’t felt sure of myself or even relief but instead, a steadfast determination to do the work required to bring about a Spiritual Experience, has entered my heart. The phrase, “Keep going, I’ll help you.” Came to me in meditation. I will continue to climb to my new life. Thank God for OA! Teri C. Montana Overeaters Anonymous
Lynn
4/21/2021 04:00:11 pm
Great work Teri! I have seen a huge change in you!
Laurie M
4/21/2021 08:47:55 pm
Teri thank you so much for your share! I can relate to so much of this and your share encourages me to choose the latter with regards to my biological family as well. Developing a higher power, working through my trust issues, has been so key for my recovery and that "new" freedom. You go girl!
Lesley K. South East Alaska IG
5/8/2021 04:55:19 pm
Thank you for reminding me that to stay in recovery I need to grow spiritually. A way to do it is to write amends letters and explore spiritual literature that help me let go of my CDs. When I am feeling 'no good' or overwhelmed I can ask for the willingness to let go and from within I receive the willingness and the ability to take the next right action! Comments are closed.
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